HELP! | Self-analysis: Who can I be? | S2 E10 | Love & Sex | Umy
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I'm afraid of being asked, „What about you? What gender are you? Are you a virgin? Do you have a partner? Are you in a relationship?" I would always become angry with the people asking those questions because I'm not sure how to respond to them with my attitude toward sexuality.
So I started exploring issues of sex and gender, and I wanted to understand the public mindset on sexuality. If I find a novel theory, I will try to associate the theory with my everyday life. I long for making sexual and gender things common.
For example, for the theory of "the continuum of sexual orientation", I will start with biological sex. Biological sex is divided into male and female, there are two main types. The continuum of sexual orientation means that the types of sexual orientations are distinguished by "degree", so there are infinite kinds of sexual orientations.
We can distinguish sexual orientation by the degree of the two extremes. According to the degree of admiration for the two biological sex, I put the two extremes, Androphilia and Gynephilia, on a line, but change their names. Because for me, my admiration for males stands for „heterosexuality“, I put it on the left. So the right side, which describes my admiration for females, is „homosexuality“.
On this line, each person's position is not the same. Thus I know, that people’s sexual orientations can differ. Actually, it should be distinctive between human beings.
We have "unlimited kinds" of sexual orientation.
But I also want to make sure, "Am I a normal person?" Will I always change my partners? Will I be in a relationship with a man and a woman at the same time? Will I become sexually addicted?
They all depend on my "personality."
It has nothing to do with my "sexual orientation“.
Why did I even pop up with these questions?
Because I didn't understand at that time, that sexual orientation differs from person to person. When there is something that I don’t understand, I think it is “strange”. When there is something that I can’t explain, I think it is „sick“. Finally, I understand. When I say something „abnormal, problematic, psyche“, it just means that I haven’t got any clear idea of it.
At last, I rearrange these concepts using metaphors, stories, and character design from purely encyclopedic data and theories. Why am I used to doing this?
Because I often come up with new ideas when I feel helpless and dying. At that point, I would rush back to check the theories, logically ponder, and connect them with my experiences. Then I suddenly see the light, and I feel at ease.
So although I often mocked myself as being an evangelist, I realize that if my ideas could save me right away, they would be able to rescue one more person.
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